Creating anything beyond mediocrity can be intimidating. I mean really fucking intimidating. Sometimes I freak myself out when I listen to amazing music. It’s as if my mind can’t fathom the possibility of getting to the level of greatness. Maybe this is something a lot of people think about. Maybe it’s something that cripple’s people’s dreams before they take action. I re-watched an interview with Will Smith where he spoke of a brick-laying task his father had him and his little brother do when he was young (Feel free to watch the short video for his explanation). I really love the idea of looking at large tasks as laying a single brick. Rather than looking at the entire beast of a project, look at it as taking small steps. Don’t skimp on the small steps, though. Kick fucking ass with every small step. Lay down the best fucking brick every time. Each brick you lay down, with time, may turn out to be a castle when you’re done.
I’m going to be real honest here. I internally feel that each song I release to the world will be “the song” and every time I do not get the response I anticipated it pushes me harder to catch the open ears I desire. It’s like a fucking game. If one thing doesn’t work, I’ll try something else. I sharpen my skills, I reach out to more people, and I listen to music more critically. Patience is a real fucking thing. It’s a talent. I thought I had patience. Shit, other people think I have patience, but sometimes I feel on edge to move faster. Maybe it has to do with my age; maybe it doesn’t.
I will say that my focus has been getting narrower and narrower. I catch myself when I waste time binge watching TV or surfing the internet on meaningless bullshit. The little things I do on a day to day basis have a purpose like meal prepping to save time, money, and give me better health; exercising to give me energy; watching motivational videos to, well, motivate me; and cutting ties with people that don’t impact me on a positive level. Everything is tied into everything else and I am aware of that. I just need to be patient for the time when everything will properly be in line with everything else.
I had a vision. I had a vision of AC Slater getting down at the Max. This vision happened to be a song I made called…AC Slater. I recently told myself that I plan to release a song a month. It’s a challenge for me creatively, but I need the push to continue creating. The hardest part is releasing content even when I think I can do better.
I came to the realization this morning that I have been asking the wrong questions this whole time. On many occasions, I have been asking self-serving questions. The type of questions that won’t do anyone else much good. I was not thinking of how I could be of better service to other people.
There’s a great audio from Earl Nightingale called “Attitude and Excellence” where he makes mention that we are on this earth to serve others. Nothing else. I heard the audio many times before, but I never really understood what he was really saying.
When asking a question, it is far more powerful to state it in a way that will help others rather than oneself. Ask how to bring value into people’s lives or how to make them happy. Give abundantly, take when necessary, and receive openly.
I ran into this video the other day about how Bobby Sessions artist quit his day job with only $50 in his bank account with the aspiration to work on music full time. I’d rather not get into full details about the video since all you have to do is hit the friggin’ play button.
The idea is amazing, actually. Why put yourself through hell by working towards another man’s dream? Why spend 40 to 50 hours per week toward something you aren’t passionate about? It’s not only time consuming, but it’s energy consuming. It’s really a no brainer to kick rocks, right?
I tuned into more video sources talking about the same idea. Quit your job and take the leap of faith. The sources that I checked out brought up some solid points, however, I have not found a source that really dives into how to make money in the beginning of the major transition. If you don’t work at your passion full time it takes so much longer to even can take care of yourself financially. I understand that, but are you supposed to save up money to pay bills, loans, food, etc before you put in your two weeks? If so, then how much? Do you need to get into another side hustle that will make you quick money in order to continue investing in yourself? What if you don’t have your parents financial backing or a partner’s financial backing like Bobby Sessions did? How long should you give yourself to make your dream turn into a reality?
Those are questions I continue to ask myself. But maybe the unknown is what makes this whole thing exciting. Not knowing. Everyone’s story is different and that is awesome. It gives everyone something interesting to tell.
Side note – I found a really cool post on the same topic by Kally. You can check it out here.
I can finally say my latest song is fucking done! Hallelujah! Damn it took so much longer than I anticipated.
The backstory behind this song came from a feeling of disappointment. Someone I love broke my heart so I started playing music. I let my feelings guide me. My mood drove me to the final section of the overall piece, but I felt like it needed something to lead into that.
Almost immediately I came up with the chords that best fit the beginning of the song. As I put the pieces together I came to realize that the beginning didn’t flow with end in the way I thought it would. So, I started to pull up photos of inspiration (I tend to do this when a song reminds me of someone or something).
The photos I chose for this song were of two rock musicians–Anthony Green of Saosin and Thomas Erak of The Fall of Troy. With the inspiration, I came up with the middle section to transition into the third part.
From there I began putting things in, taking things out, and making the overall piece work to my standards. It took time. Lots of fucking time.
Overall, I am satisfied with what I have come up with. It may not be a hit on the charts, but it is something that I can stand by. I can move forward with no regrets.
My next question to myself is how can I make music that’s better? What can I do to gain and hold the ears of listeners? I listen to other musicians in awe with how they can accomplish that task. It seems so simple, but there is so much more that goes into it.
I know none of you guys know, but I am currently a special event coordinator for the company I am employed by. It sounds more glamorous than it is, but hell, it pays the bills for now. The other day I decided on searching for special events in the area that I could work with. The process was pretty damn simple: search online, get contact info, contact potential client, repeat.
I kept my search going for about an hour until I randomly stumbled across a one on one class that teaches Ableton. I have no clue how this course got mixed into special events around my area, but I immediately got in contact with the individual that holds the class. Now I have my first personal Ableton course in the next few weeks.
I’m not really into the whole new age way of thinking. The whole “Thoughts become things” idea is kind of meh to me, but I think there is some truth to it. It’s hard for me to find an answer to how I stumbled across this course. I wasn’t looking for it, but my reticular activating system was open to it. Maybe it’s because I listen to a shit load of Napoleon Hill audios that speaks about the Law of Attraction. I don’t fucking know, but I’m going to keep asking the right questions and keep my eyes open.
Now I’m not the type of person that believes in luck. I don’t fucking believe in it. I believe that luck and/or opportunities are there for those who open themselves up to it. I don’t know where this course will take me, but I’ve been asking God, the higher power, or whatever you want to call it for help. I’ve been asking for something to help me get to the next level of creating music. Maybe this is the answer. Maybe it’s not the answer. What I do know is this is something that I need to do.